I felt the need to vent my feelings. I teach 3rd grade and one of the things that we teach is to figure out the author's purpose when reading...thus the title of this post. In my past life as an accountant I met some really great people. I feel that the Lord puts people in your lives for different reasons. I recently reconnected with one of those people via Facebook and she doesn't know how much I have appreciated our conversations over the past couple of months. I learned from her the importance of venting your feelings no matter what the situation because you just never know how your strength will help someone in the future.
Well, for about 11 months now, Stephan and I have been trying to conceive a baby. The past months have been such a roller coaster ride for us. This has truly been a hard test of my faith because I try to keep in mind that the Lord has a plan and that I just need to allow it to take its course. However, being the type A person that I am, I feel like I want to figure out what's wrong and fix it. In July of 2009 I recieved a diagnosis that required me to take a chemotherapy for a year and a half. I can't help but think that has something to do with why we are having such a hard time conceiving right now. I feel like it's my fault...my body, my illness, my problems. We are now to the point that we are going to have to seek fertility assistance. I am so scared for this but I know that medical assistance is put here for a reason. I decided to start this blog so that I can jott down my thoughts and help me get through this. I pray that we will have the results that we have been wanting and we need all the support we can get at this time. Just pray for our little family that things work out for the best. And so the journey begins....
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